Posted by: mydarkestplaces | February 13, 2010


Last week I started on the road to whatever version of Me lays down the road.

Maybe I should preface this. I’m not looking to actively change myself, I’m just looking to actively change myself. Confused yet? I have been, too. I feel like I’ve been living life like a perennial “C” student. Doing just enough to NOT fail, but not necessarily making a concerted effort to succeed. That’s not to say that average is bad. I’m doing alright as average. A very large part of my psyche wishes I could be content with average. Unfortunately, the smaller part of my psyche is saying “you’re more than that.”

This leads me to my latest journey. I’m trying to improve myself. Mentally, physically and professionally. The step I took last week mostly concerns the last, with a great potential to help the first.

I’m taking an improv class. That’s right, me. An improv class.

I must admit, it’s not something I ever envisioned myself doing. For one, I’m shy. For two, I’m shy and mildly introverted. So why, you may ask, did I decide to sign up for such a thing?

It helps that one of my good friends, Rachel (who you can find here and here), teaches the class. It also helps that several of my other Twitter buds are also in the class. That means I’m not freaking out internally because of the mass amountsofstrangerssurroundingmeandOHMYGOD!!!! Sorry about that little freak out…

Besides the safe environment this class provides, the benefits are going to be phenomenal (I think and hope). Let me enumerate them for you:

  • Think on the fly. I tend to get a little too bogged down in the details: who, what, why, where, why, why, why… Turns out, the devil is in the details and if you focus TOO long, then you end up blowing it.
  • Offer it up. Although it’s nice to include others in the decision making process, sometimes in our work worlds we can’t do that. We need to make a decision and stick with it – don’t ask, do it. (Testimonial: :  At work when we get new product in, it’s sometimes our job to merchandise it. We used to get torn up about it “does this look right? What if we moved this?” Then we realized, if the Powers that Be like it, they’ll leave it. If they don’t, they’ll move it. We did our job, it’s up to Them to do with it what they will.)
  • “F*** It.” This is our class motto. Basically, go big or go home. If you’re going to mess up, mess up hard. At least you’ll know you tried.
  • Be assertive. Having the ability to say “Here is my decision. Here is why I made it. And here is why YOU need to follow it,” is going to be invaluable as I develop myself professionally. (It’s not easy to be a leader to folks who may have worked for your company longer than you’ve been alive.)

There are many hurdles that lay in the not so distant future. I need to have the confidence to say in interviews, “Here’s why I am the BEST candidate that will cross your path.” This class, about as far out of my comfort zone as anything I’ve done the past three years, will help take me to that next level. Hopefully :)


  1. That’s wonderful. I’ve heard only good things about Rachel.

    The bulk of your first paragraph–about being average but wanting more–is precisely how I feel about me. It’s good to know I’m not the only one who feels that way. :)

    Are there any shows we public can attend?

    Love the bit about being assertive.

    • I’m not sure about the shows yet. I recall, from sessions past (or rather what I’ve heard about sessions past) that there is a public show at the end of the class.

      When I get more information I’ll get back to you :)

      As for the assertiveness, that comment stemmed DIRECTLY from a situation at work this morning lol

  2. Rachel is my efriend. I trust her and feel safe with her and tell her things I don’t generally share. So I’m jealous as all Hell that you get to take her class. I know it will help you get to where you want to be because that’s what Rachel DOES! What a wonderful thing to do for yourself and your life – I congratulate you on stepping out of your safe zone. Go for it ALL!

    • Thanks Elfie! It will definitely be interesting to see how it all progresses. The good news: I can’t really see a way this could be bad for me!

  3. […] who can’t read braille, it says, “F*** It.” If you’ve read my post about Rachel’s improv class (I’m taking it for the second time), then you know that this is our class motto. A slightly […]

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