Posted by: mydarkestplaces | May 2, 2012

Washington, D.C.

A couple things have become really, REALLY obvious since I came into D.C. proper this morning.

  1. I am a GIANT FREAKING NERD. The first stop I made was NPR headquarters. Second stop? The Library of Congress. I haven’t hit up any monuments or other Smithsonians, but I did find NPR and Starbucks. ::shakes my head::

    I am a giant, giant nerd.

  2. How freaking young was I in college? I know everyone goes through this at some point in their lives, but, seriously, I was super naive. I used to believe that I would find a job and move to Washington. That I would be able to make a difference in people’s lives just because I’m a helluva nice and smart person. Moreover, I used to think that’s what I wanted. Six years out of college – and traipsing around DC – I’ve come to the irrefutable truth that hell no I don’t want to live in DC. I will never be in a position to effect wide-scale change, nor do I really want to be.*

It’s not that my politics have changed. Believe me, I’m still as liberal as I was when I was in college. The biggest difference is that where I once thought I could change the world in a huge miraculous way, I know now that I’m going to have to change people’s lives one at a time. Volunteering, leading by example, treating others as I’d want to be treated. For those of us on the front line – far from the hallowed halls of Congress and the White House – there’s not way that we can make the kind of broadscale, legislative differences that our government can make. But maybe if we just love a little more and judge a little less, give a little more and fight a little less – maybe then person by person we can make a difference.

*I do want to be able to effect huge change, but I don’t want to have the kind of responsibilities inherent therein.


  1. Why don’t you want those responsibilities? It’s just, I went to university in D.C. (with an npr internship to boot) and it was the most illuminating, difficult, amazing, joyous decision I made. The town is very close to me because it is two-fold: on one end is the corporate, organized, eternally present system of government which lives there, and yet on the other end is an endless supply of individuals from across the country who had a small idea in mind and came to DC to develop a community dedicated to it. It’s an inspiring place to be, but the only way to handle it is to maintain perspective–that the city is not the country, but merely a place attempting as a mirror to it, with the potential to reflect whatever you want it to.

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